I wish I'd never come back here
'cause the pain I left
just rang me up, said 'Wassup'
replagued my soul

Then said to me 'Welcome Back'

I wish I'd never come back here

'cause every night when I lay my body down to sleep

I rest in a river

a river of my own blood, my own sweat

but mostly my own tears

from the horrid days and dreaded nights

when you'd beat my mind, kill my spirit

and burn every dream I had

'til all was left was but a hole

I wish I'd never come back here

to relive the murder you committed to my heart

you raped my mind

assaulted my thoughts

shoved me down back to dirt

then spat me shame

never allowing me my strength to regain

I wish I'd never come back here

because I'm a coward for not blaming you

for failing me in my youth

cursing me as a man

disillusioned by the reality that I am but what I am

and whether you love me or not

God is my Man

holding me tight in every night

whispering to me those things that you refuse

I wish I'd never come back here

but here I am

standing in this room that burns my flesh

throbbing in my brain

feeling prisoner to this place I know as home