Sitting alone on my darkest night/ through piercing pain and body aches/ that picks and throbs at the crown of my head/ and trickes down my middle toe

Thoughts of you spell your name across my mind/ confuse my emotions drowning out my sorrow/ and igniting a possibility of a better tomorrow

Embodied with a soul that brings content to my spirit/ in a time when glee is suppressed by frustation and doubt

Probe my heart as you will/ but undertand that though i guard it with the strength of a mighty fist/ the master key is never hard to find

Having that you seek it with noble intent and desiring need

Expressing my feeling has never been an easy task/ so i hope you shall help guide the way/ with the patience of a gentle black night

Necessary for the feelings i have/ but most importantly for the promise of fulfillment i beg to offer you.

I wish I'd never come back here
'cause the pain I left
just rang me up, said 'Wassup'
replagued my soul

Then said to me 'Welcome Back'

I wish I'd never come back here

'cause every night when I lay my body down to sleep

I rest in a river

a river of my own blood, my own sweat

but mostly my own tears

from the horrid days and dreaded nights

when you'd beat my mind, kill my spirit

and burn every dream I had

'til all was left was but a hole

I wish I'd never come back here

to relive the murder you committed to my heart

you raped my mind

assaulted my thoughts

shoved me down back to dirt

then spat me shame

never allowing me my strength to regain

I wish I'd never come back here

because I'm a coward for not blaming you

for failing me in my youth

cursing me as a man

disillusioned by the reality that I am but what I am

and whether you love me or not

God is my Man

holding me tight in every night

whispering to me those things that you refuse

I wish I'd never come back here

but here I am

standing in this room that burns my flesh

throbbing in my brain

feeling prisoner to this place I know as home

My purpose here tonight is to basically make a personal post. But first before I do anything else, I would just like to send out my love and my appreciation to all you Bloggers who stopped in on me, and showed me soooo much love. I have never been "Wow"ed so many times in my life...and it just touched me tremendously how all of you were affected by my post. It brings me so much joy to know that I moved you in the ways you say I did, and I'm also grateful for the inspiring feedback you left. Although I was just being SoFaReal...I thank you anyhow....

...and on to the post...

I've been feelin' this for like the past two weeks, and so while in class today...my sentiments finally hit paper.

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You please me in bounty

Careesing me from my soles to my soul

Filling me whole with no control

Some say I'm insane to be inflamed

By such rapture that makes me weep even when I sleep

though I'm not ashamed to take blame

for the fire that has possessed my desires

Wowed by the sound

of the voice that gets me moist

in places not limited to faces

yet replaces social norms that form

and that arise to demise

the true me that only I see

You keep me when I'm weak

Pick me up when I'm stuck beneath life's muck

And even in times of those inevitable binds

Comfort you make, though never forsake

So this is thanks

A musing of my heart, not the banks

And too a formal plea for the need of the seed

which you plant and renders a pant

and for the consuming affect that starts at the nape of the neck

runs through my pecks, though its not sex.

It's the nature of the sensations

that provides me the inspiration

to announce to those I call my kin

that this pleasure is no sin

but an expression of my inner peace.